Sunday, October 10, 2010

I've Fallen Asleep

It wouldn't surprise me if many of you have thought that something was wrong with me since I haven't written a blog in so long. Nothing has been wrong. I just think that sometimes, I tend to fall asleep.

I'm not sure why but sometimes, I ignore what I'd rather be doing (writing) and just focus on what I have to do (work). I have been in such a mode since my last blog. I have switched departments at my work within the last month and have been working hard so that they will keep me rather than passing me along. This is the fifth department I've worked in at Lovelace, and the fourth just this year. I'm like the orphan child who wanders from place to place without a home.

I think part of me felt a bit letdown as well since my last blog because my last blog was an attempt at finally getting a real writing job. I didn't get it, and although I knew I wouldn't get it, I think a part of me wanted to quit for awhile. At this point, I don't think I'll ever try getting another writing job. I'm just tired of trying at it.

Right now, I'm living just to live, which is the first time in a long time that I think I've done such a thing. I have nothing in particular I want except to just get through the day so I can go home and spend time with my wife doing things I want to do. Despite how it sounds though, I am not sad or depressed. I am actually quite happy and I try to enjoy all that I can with the time I have to myself. I am a bit worried however at where my life is headed, in a career sense. It is often said that if you don't know where you want to go, you end up where you don't want to be. And I have no idea where I want to go.

Anyway, I'll end this update with the hope that I'll continue to write more and to get back on track. I hope you are all doing well.


Nene said...

I think you'll figure it out as time goes by. I think you should continue to pray about it, and if you do, you'll get where you want to go. You should also keep submitting your resume if you think of a place you'd like to work. These days, you're just lucky to have any kind of job, and I know you'll do a good job no matter what you do.

Amber said...

don't worry - alot of us just get through the day until 5pm, its just one of those things - i'm sure something will happen or come along to show you what to do next