Wednesday, June 10, 2009

The Elephant In The Room

I've been out of work for quite awhile now. I don't like talking about it mostly because I feel so ashamed of myself and I like to give people the impression that I'm fine. To be honest, I AM fine. But I really do wish that I had a job. I really do like working. There is something that is really unconscious about work, a feeling that you're being useful and contributing that you never notice until it's gone. I've recently been trying to break into a writing career, writing for local newspapers and magazines around Albuquerque but nothing has really happened even though I emailed all of them that I could find. I did get the okay to do freelance work for the Alibi but when I emailed the editors about any assignments they had, they said they didn't have any and that they almost never use freelancers, which is not good for me. I've emailed so many freakin' people about jobs I just want to scream. I keep thinking of giving Accounting Principals another call, which is my temp agency, and telling them I'll do anything they want but it feels like I'd be giving up and raising the white flag if I did that. When I was doing all of those crappy jobs for them, there was not a single day that went by where I didn't feel like I was wasting my time and abilities and that I really needed to leave and find something better. But, I just don't know what to do anymore. I really want to get a career in line so that Stacy and I can start a family and I could support us all. I've fasted and prayed and so has my wife, and many other family and friends. I feel grateful that I've had so much support but I'm sad that I haven't helped that support come to fruition. Anyway, I just thought I should update everybody on what's going on and thank you for all your support.

5 comments:

Delirious said...

Our Stake has an employment specialist. Every week on one certain night he goes to the Stake center and is available to help people who are searching for a job. Not only will he help with resumes, but he also has job leads. You should check and see if your Stake has the same thing. In addition, they also hold a job fairs at the Interstake center once a year. My husband found his last job through that job fair.

Amber said...

Maybe you should start a "professional" blog. You could even do the kind with the advertisements, and then just review stuff yourself. And if it doesn't end up getting you anywhere no biggie, but I know so many people that get paid to blog. Just a random thought I just had. Anywho, keep trying and something will eventually come up,sometimes it just takes time.

keira said...

You should try going to the temple once a week. I have never felt so blessed in my life as I have during the times I was attending the temple once a week.

Nene said...

I think you should take or email your resume to Bro. Wright. He is a resume professional and can really help you. Then I think you should make a list of companies and just start sending your resume to as many as you can think of.

Inklings said...

Those temp jobs may give you other contacts that lead to a job. Something to think about.
Subbing did that for me when I lived in Logan.